Month: February 2001

last night, headed down the bar and drank in the company of James, Kearn, Arron and Paul – decidedly lacking in female company. Still, going to put that right later today by having lunch with Sarah and possibly DAGS if she is about.
Paul is still ragging me about describing Could Be Good as “nice” and says he is thinking about changing the name of the band to “Could Be Nice” – which, now that I think about it, is actually quite catchy in a camp kinda way.

following on from my rant the other day about dignity, I think that the people involved in this story, especially Lucie’s father, have acted with amazing levels of dignity in the face of absolutely horrifying circumstances.

A beautiful sunny day with glorious skies….ruined only by having to spend it in the office completing a sales declaration for the bloody HDC. ugh.
Anyway, should be out for a beer tonight, although not sure who else is around – Sarah at least, probably one or two others as well.
Not going into the office this weekend – instead it’ll be a bit of work on the new Grayblog, lunch here and there, maybe some college homework, tidying up the flat, and possibly going for a walk. See how it goes.

the floodwaters have started rising again in Chichester. The Lavant is level with the top of the banks around the college area, and has actually flooded about a third of the car park. And it’s flowing at quite a speed too. More rain forecast as well – will it ever end?

not doing well in the cheerfulness department again at the moment, so anyone with cheery ideas – well, you know what to do.

Last night’s amusement: when at college, occasionally we have to act out role-play scenarios. In last night’s scenario, I had to play the part of someone suffering from Tourette Syndrome – being able to legitimately shout obscenities in front of a roomful of people was actually quite cathartic!

Paul’s survey of the relationship status of ukbloggers reveals that 60% are single. Not a shocking result (although I thought it might be higher). So, if 60% are single, with at least one common interest, do I see bloggerdating on the horizon? Scary thought.

quiet day today

tonight, a soft and gentle rain is falling on Chichester. It is more like June than February, and is a brilliant mood enhancer. I have the feeling that the “old world order” is falling away from my life, and a new order is about to impose itself. Things which for the last year at least, and in some cases things from the last 15 to 20 years, things that I have taken as granted and stable are proving not to be so. Life is changing in ways I can barely comprehend, let alone deal with. New challenges and new opportunities are becoming evident, and, as a naturally reserved person who enjoys stability, this is a slightly disturbing concept. I really need someone to hug and be a point of stability to work from. I know that the first half of that sentence seems a bit weak (the hugging part), but I crave some physical contact, the feeling that I’m not alone. As for the second part of that sentence (the point of stability bit), well, I’m the sort of person who usually does not respond well to changes in circumstance, and prefers things to be cosy, and yet challenging, and it’s always easier to deal with change when you have a point of reference, of stability, to work from.
I guess that the challenge and the cosy are missing right now.
…and I feel very alone…
UPDATE:
don’t feel quite so alone now (following morning), probably because the beer has worn off. It has to be said that drinking does nothing to enhance the mood. Not that I’ve been drinking gallons, just a couple of pints, but that’s enough to be a bit of a downer. Besides, why should I feel alone? I’ve got some great mates who have been really patient and supportive during the recent melancholies. Basically I just need to give myself a good shake and stride purposefully into the future (whatever that may be).

Nico has pointed out a problem with my code. Hopefully all is well now. Thanks.
UPDATE: oops – bad link to Nico now fixed. Sorry. Also, I’ve only fixed the bug on the Blogger-maintained pages, so the about page, my CV and meetlinks are all unrepaired – will fix them in the morning.