just a short note to

just a short note to say thanks to everyone who has sent kind words.
I’m still struggling with the whole thing at the moment, and would do anything to wake up and find things were different. but life doesn’t usually work like that.
as always with these things, the whole situation is far from simple – in fact it is very complicated. I may tell you about it one day, but I don’t think I can/should at the moment.
near-normal blogging will be restored shortly, as surfing the web and looking at crap has been quite good therapy over the last couple of days – anything that stops me from thinking is a good thing to do.